Knowing what he feels towards me is very important.  Are we passionate about each other? Cuz I know we are.

If only he knows, if only he knows.

(Source : http://wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn)

Some people have been so terrible to my good friends. I know that I should stand up for them but 3 against 11? Quite difficult but what the hell. It is an invisible war anyway. They threw atomic bombs to her through Facebook! Wow. Chickens. They do not dare to confront her, or us. They do not even have the courage to speak out for themselves or more likely, they are losers and close-minded.

Anyway, talking about chickens. I seriously have no fear towards this lecturer? But I do feel terrible for not respecting him. I have been quite rude (verbally) ; not that I spit out those ugly words such as the “F” word whatsoever, but yeah, I think I kinda “boiled” him up with some of my mean sentences.

Some examples :

Event 1 -
Teacher : I scold many students for this experiment. You don’t want me to scold you, don’t you?
Me : I don’t mind to be scolded because you always scold me in class anyway (with a slumber face).
Teacher : *jaw opened* – speechless

Event 2 -
Teacher : You never stop eating ar?
Me : I did. I stopped 30 minutes ago. If I didn’t eat, then I’ll sleep in class. And then you’ll scold me.
Teacher : *smile* – speechless

Event 3 –
Me : Sir, would you like to have some snack (keropok ikan)?
Teacher : Yeah, sure!
Me : Here it is.
Teacher : *choosing*
Me : You still wanna choose the biggest one?  *Actually, what  I meant here is, the one that he held was the biggest one already. But I think maybe he actually wanted a smaller one? But this one, I really really really really regretted for saying it. But I didn’t look at him how he reacted. I’m pretty sure he was pissed off.

FACEBOOK : STUDENT-LECTURER

But wow, I’ve never been so rude to any lecturers but if only I could say sorry to him. Anyway, having lectures in your FB friends list is very inappropriate because lectures should remain professional. Social-networking websites are very useful especially for communications but it becomes dangerous when lecturers or teachers start commenting on students’ statuses. The barrier between teachers and students is no longer there as everything posted there have been publicized. As long as you’re still friends, they will be updated with personal statuses, personal pictures and etc.

It is very uncomfortable for a student if a lecturer brings up the issue in the class; even if it is a minor thing. To me, when a lecturer starts to talk about my friend’s personal life, it’s very distracting til’ I’ll have to tell her to “shhh” because it is too personal. So what if she has a pair expensive and branded spectacles? Those things should NOT be told in class and it is not even related to that subject.

Besides that, this can be another way for students to approach lecturers; to get closer to them – perhaps get into their personal life as well. But that’s not a matter. The matter is when they started to get too closed, gossips spread like some kind of INCURABLE viruses! And of course, they love the ones who are always with them and tend to be bias. It is something normal IF you seek him and ask questions and later, you found out that you guys can get along as everything is real. What I meant by real is, you don’t have to wait 10 minutes just to answer his question and from there, you can totally be honest.

As a conclusion, we, students should set a barrier between lecturers and students and seriously, having them in the friends list is kinda weird though. Do you really want them to know about your personal life so that you can stuck your nose up; SPY on what they’re up to? LOL. Dramas. Can’t help myself from watching them and I think I need some popcorns!

It  didn’t go well. The performance? AWFUL. The comments from the 4 judges. HEART-BREAKING.  Been rejected. TWICE! Oh well, this IDOL thingy maybe just not my thing.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S! @ college

Yes! AMAZING show right? I can watch the show over and over and over again without getting bored. Rachel and her friends were amazing in that show and I wished such friendship really does exist in this real life. Frankly, I’m not really gonna talk about the show but I wanna talk about FRIENDS. MY friends. How they have been good to me and etcetera.

During the 2nd Audition for THE IDOL – My performance was far below my expectation (my ears would bleed if I listen to the recorded version) and I made some new friends there. Some of them were the contestants themselves and some of them were the committee members. I was amazed to see how they had encouraged me and at least, yes, AT LEAST, 2 people asked me to teach them how to play guitar. LOL. Honestly, I suck at teaching people. But whatever, I don’t mind to give a shot.

Oh yes, FRIENDS. How do you describe your friends?

Let me describe some of my good college friends.

1) Always be my side when I needed them.
2) Very supportive.
3) Funny.
4) Smart asses
5) Sarcastic

Enough with this FRIENDS issue. Here’s another HEART issue.

L.O, L.O, L.O.V.E!
I think I’m in LOVE. It is the last thing that I want the world to know. The last love that I had was a failure and since then, I don’t believe in love anymore and my perspective on love has changed ever since. He greeted me with his  amazing gorgeous and cute smile, and the dimples, just made myself lost control. Yes. I’m a sucker for guys with dimples! hehe..

The thing I feel for him is very confusing. Is it love or just another I-like-him thing? Or are they the same thing? But whatever that feeling is, it really makes my heart beat extremely fast every time he’s around.

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart” – Hellen Keller

Yup. You heard me right. May 3, 2010 – The beginning of my second semester. I was so wrong for expecting it to be super fun, which was NOT! I waited since morning, around 9 something up to 10am something. In the end, this lady told me to come again (cuz I’m a special case) at 2pm to see the head programme and discuss about my schedule and the discussion only finished at almost 4 o’clock!!

Finally, my timetable has been finalized, with 3 subjects only while my friends are doing 5 subjects ( I should be happy right? But I’m not!! Too much free time).

Anyway, here’s my fucking boring timetable :

Mon : BIO119 (6-8pm)
Tues: MGT127 (8-10am)
Wed : MCB122 (10am – 12pm)
Thurs: BIO119 (8-10am)
Fri : MCB122 (8-10am) and MGT127 (4-6pm)

Do you see what I’m talking about?? I seriously have no idea YET on how to spend my free time. LOL. Of course, there’s no doubt about studying during the free time.

Anyway, today was just another fucking terrible day. I was sent to the counselor by my HOP (Head of Programme) because I failed my two papers and it was fucking stupid and damn boring! I swear I would never return there but well, I have to. I have another appointment with them on the 27th. Though it was fucking ridiculous, but I’m happy cuz I finally get to have my own personal schedule for my bad time management. But I wasted 1 hour there, with an unfriendly counselor. Sigh.

I entered my first class today, BIO119 and it was interesting. My lecturer let us listened to this really peaceful music, with the BIRDS CHIPPING. At first it was really refreshing but after some time, it made me sleepy! Omg, he’s gonna keep on using this music during our lecture time and I have no clue if I’m able to focus. LOL.

2.35 am is nothing for me but since my roommate is around, I’ll have to sleep early. I don’t wanna be selfish. So, I shall stop writing.

Adios. And nitey nitey,